Flower Power!

I just wanted to show off my new tie. My sister dropped it off my house, once belonging to my bro-in-law. She thought I would appreciate the very flower-ful array of fall colors adorning the dark blue base background.

Part of me suspects a vindictive nature in her surge of generosity; picking out the worst tie in his spring cleaning throw-away pile and driving 8 miles to give it to me... after which she would drive back to her place while viciously snickering.

I bet she was waiting for me to make a face as she hands me this astericks-ornamented tie that seems to once belong to Bozo the Clown but HA! You thought wrong sissy!!! My face lit up with joy as this precious piece of garment is laid upon my hands... a true sign of LIKING IT!

Though my puzzled mind still screams "Where in the world did this tie come from, and why in the world would he have it?!?!" the unique character of this tie entices me and sparks a strong adoration towards it. Weird.

Pink, Green, and Blue

Pink. Color of universal love. Provides feelings of caring, tenderness, self-worth and love, acceptance. Favored by lovers of beauty.

Green. Color of nature, fertility, life. Most restful color. Symbolizes self-respect and well-being. Also means learning, growth, and harmony.
Blue. Color of inspiration, sincerity, and spirituality. Calming color. Opens the flow of communication. Symbolizes solitude and peace.

Heartbreak

I thought we loved each other. I guess NOT. We spend all this time making videos with bunnies and ponies, and eating oreo-encrusted brownies, and Thursday TV nights...and now you tell me you don't love me anymore?!?!

I'm absolutely HURT!

But regardless of your unbelievable inconsideration of my feelings, I still feel compelled to tell you that MY LOVE for YOU will never disappear!

*sniff*

What I learned from bowling...

Last Saturday, my whole family and I went bowling...

Though seemingly mediocre compared to the vast variety of activities one can do, I found it very pleasing and more than satisfied my need to take a break from my intense life and have a little fun.

After "damn near perfect" day, I was very much certain that karma wasn't gonna allow me to have any more fun any time soon. That became very clear to me when the days post-DNPday turned into a nightmare full of emotional distress and unnecessary stinkeyes. And in addition to that, after personal day-offs, grey's-anatomying, brazil-cafeing, and guitaring on the grass, I KNEW it was all over for me... karma was never gonna forgive me...

So much for a relaxing spring break!!!

But then bowling came along...

And after a week of mixed emotions swimming around in me, bowling was the one thing I needed most. It wasn't just a wonderful stress-reliever, but it also taught me VALUABLE LIFE LESSONS.

1. A 60-something-pound girl with OI can bowl... she would probably suck... but she can bowl.

2. Don't be embarrassed to request for rails... They really help you, especially when you suck (like the 60-something-pound girl with OI!)

3. Don't bite off more than you can chew... don't try to bowl a 15 pound ball when you can barely lift it off the table. (Also, biting a gigantic piece of the breakfast sandwich might cause near-Heimlich-maneuver choking that would scare the family bowling next to you... YOU'RE SUCH A PIG OLIVIA!!!)

4. Arcade games at bowling alleys are WAY too damn expensive

5. Dance Dance Revolution sucks when you don't know how to play well...or play at all

6. Spending time with your loved ones and seeing them genuinely smile is one of the most rewarding gifts you can ever be given.

7. No matter how much someone gets on your nerves, setting your differences aside, even for just 2 hours of throwing a 10 lb. ball around, could be beneficial for said loved ones.

8. Bowling is a wonderful way to let out all the anger festering inside of you... maybe anger towards the person mentioned in above lesson.

9. A little shot of endorphins can make you forget about pain, whether its physical or emotional.

As you step back and watch the ones you love have the time of their lives, you realize how lucky you are to have them. That despite the little feuds that occur within that circle, you realize that there is still so much love that exists. That even though anger infiltrates to your brain, you realize that it's more important to get rid of all that anger because now you know that not having it feels so much better.

Though the aftermath of this whole shebang consists of 6 rounds of Tylenol for the immense muscle pain, and being a whole lot poorer from the combined costs of games, shoes, and arcade for a total of about 25 people, all in all, I had a really great time.

STRIKE!

It's not always how it seems...

Have you ever met a person that seems to have the perfect life?

They have the smarts, the great looks, the overall amazing personality.

Well, I'll let you in on a little secret: Nothing's always what it seems. There will be times when the person you think has it better than you actually has it worse. You can't judge someone because of what they choose to show you.

Oh, no. There is a reason why they CHOOSE to show the good part of their lives and hide the bad parts. It's all about flaunting what you got, and tucking away the things you wish you never had. There's no need for anyone else to know what's wrong with your life...whiners are annoying. Plus, you have that pressure...everyone thinks you're perfect, so you hide the imperfections so that they won't think any less of you. You want to reassure them that there's nothing wrong, in hopes of convincing yourself that there's nothing wrong.
But at the same time, hiding your problems could lead to irreparable internal damages. You choose to hide all the bad stuff so much that you store it all inside, then you EXPLODE. You care about how others think about you so much, that you're causing yourself to emotionally die...and you're not showing yourself anymore, but this other person you created to portray a perfect life. You can't cry yourself to bed every night thinking that somehow, everything's gonna be OK.

Know that no one's perfect...there is no such thing as a perfect life. Don't refrain from showing your emotions because you're afraid that they're gonna think you're psychotic, or weird, or crazy.

For goodness' sake, you're probably making yourself even crazier...

Share yourself...write a blog...write in a diary...cry on a friend's shoulder...cry on a stranger's shoulder...